Wednesday, February 18, 2009

Sometimes it Sucks to be a Woman (TMI Ahead)

When I was younger I never used to have any discomfort during menses, before or after, or any of that. In recent years I developed PCOS. So I didn't really have regular periods for a long time, it didn't bother me so much, other than they were erratic, that's always annoying. But again, they weren't painful.

Well, ever since I started taking BC, first to help my uteran health as a result of the PCOS, and then as actual birth control, my menses has become more and more unpleasant. Unpleasant in the sense doctors use it: "This is going to be... unpleasant," and then you experience some of the worst pain of your life. Yeah, like that.

I don't understand, is it because I'm approaching 30? Is my body now torturing me for getting old? I've never felt this kind of pain before. It feels like my uterus is trying to rip itself out of my body. Or, rather, it's going on a rampage, and it's ripping apart all my other internal organs, you know, in spite or something.

I've never been bed-ridden from menses before, but honest to gods, I think today is going to be the day. It hurts to exist, it hurts just sitting here, the pain when I stand up is almost enough to take my breath away. I can barely think for the pain. On a scale of 1 to 10, I'd give this an 8, a solid 8.

I hate my uterus today, I really really do.

2 comments:

Berh said...

As someone who used to have pain so bad she threw up during menses, I say get some painkillers from your GP. I suffered through 10 years of period pain, thinking it was normal before I said something to my doctor. Those little pills - heaven...

Beth said...

And my name is Beth, btw- typing while breastfeeding is obviously not my strong suit...